What We’ve Been Up To

Omg…I can’t believe it’s been years I last posted. But, to be fair, we’ve had a lot going on.

Here’s a (somewhat) quick recap:

TW: Pregnancy loss

We had a baby! Our beautiful rainbow baby was born in May. Bill and I are completely in love with him. We suffered a miscarriage in April 2018, and that experience ushered in a dark time for our marriage. We weren’t prepared for the shock of losing the pregnancy after our first ultrasound looked awesome.

And this pregnancy wasn’t a walk in the park either. I’m going to be real here, so skip this paragraph if you don’t feel comfortable with graphic details. I had lots of early cramping this time around, and I went to the ER for bleeding at 11 weeks (the same gestation that I found out about my miscarriage). When I noticed blood clots on my toilet paper, I lost all hope. I sat in the crowded ER for hours believing that I was losing my rainbow baby. After the ultrasound, the ER doctor told me that there was still a heartbeat and fetal activity, but they weren’t sure about the cause of the bleeding and that it could go either way. Bill and I were beside ourselves, but we found out the next day at my OB’s office that it was just a small subchorionic hemorrhage.

After that hurdle, I found out that I had gestational diabetes. I used to be super afraid of needles, but I had to get over that quickly so I could prick my finger 4x a day to test my blood sugar. I managed with diet at first, but eventually, I needed to take insulin at night to control my fasting numbers. I couldn’t deal with giving myself injections, so Bill injected the insulin for me every night for weeks.

Since I had insulin-controlled GD, I had weekly ultrasounds and non-stress tests to check on Liam. He was breech starting from at least 20 weeks, and I just had a feeling that he would stay that way. I tried the Spinning Babies exercises, but he stayed put and I ended up needing a C-section.

WHEW. I’m tired just typing all of that out. I’m lucky that all of these conditions were easily managed with treatment and low-risk interventions, but it was still an extremely challenging time in my life.

I feel so blessed that my beautiful baby is finally here. He’s everything I had hoped for, and so much more! He’s happy and smiley, and I love soaking up every precious moment with him. I spend most of my days nap trapped and my nights are a blur of feedings, but he’s so worth it. I can’t wait to share more of my journey and my experience as a mom.