I’ve always struggled with guilt, but it’s so much worse now that I’m a mom. The mom guilt is *so real* and it plagues me pretty much all day, every day.
There are a million things that I feel guilty about.
My baby loves Daniel Tiger’s Neighborhood and probably gets too much screentime.
I don’t strictly follow safe sleep guidelines since he’s happiest in his Dock-a-Tot.
I can’t keep up with the housework. His naps are short, so anytime he’s asleep for 30 minutes I just sit and stare into space or browse the internet.
I’m not making much money. I still write a couple of blog posts per week, but my income is negligible.
We eat out all the time because I have no energy to cook.
My husband works 40+ hours per week but he does more housework than I do.
My mom is studying for her board exams so she can become a PTA but I still accept a ton of help from her.
My dogs, who were once my whole world, are bored. We don’t have a yard, so I can’t wrangle them and push the stroller unless it’s absolutely necessary.
And these worries are just the tip of the iceberg. I always thought I wanted two kids, but I truly don’t think I can handle that life anymore. I’m barely making it through each day right now and I’m drowning in guilt.
What’s wrong with me? Why can so many other women handle full-time jobs on top of motherhood while I’m failing so miserably at the SAHM life?
Ugh. I just feel awful about myself right now and I hope it gets better eventually. The guilt is soul-crushing and it keeps me up at night. I just want to be a good mom and wife but I’m running on fumes.
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